Author & mystic Pip DeBelfry relates the intriguing story of how, after her husband deserted her and left her with nothing, she encountered a mysterious entity that changed her life…
In the first part, we discovered how Pip’s life was a difficult struggle, bringing up her children on next to nothing, and not even getting child support from her husband, who had run off with another woman.
“I was like a zombie, an all pervading bleakness beset my every waking moment,” she said, going on to describe how she ended up on anti-depressants.
Then one night, at her wit’s end, half-drunk on vodka, Pip went to bed crying – and was startled to find a presence lying next to her in bed. Terrified, she wondered if it was a ghost or poltergeist. When she mustered the courage to look round, she was shocked to find a woman lying next to her – “a woman who looked just like me,” she said. “It was me…[but] it was like she was the woman I could be…”
And in the second part, Pip wakes up the next morning thinking it was all a vivid dream. But her other self is still in the room, and tells her: “I am your plus entity, and you have become the minus entity. In your despair, you have given up on life. You have let negativity consume you. And that is why I have separated from you.”
Pip’s Other Self then says she will usher her into a new life, where she can fulfil her potential as a human being. Although reluctant, Pip decides to go along with her Other Self – despite having had difficulties even going out due to panic attacks and general anxiety.
From the desk of Pip DeBelfry:
The whole thing was scary. Meeting my Other Self made no sense, and I wondered if I was undergoing some sort of serious mental breakdown. But at the same time I felt really good, as if I really was about to change my life for the better.
My Other Self gestured for me to follow her outside the door. And this was no easy thing for me as I had real problems even going out of my front door. At one stage I didn’t go outside for four months. I didn’t like crowded places, and I couldn’t bring myself to go in the central city library, where I’d been a librarian for many years. The sad part of this was I really love books.
But my Other Self was having none of it…
She smiled and said, “Follow me.” So I did – first taking a deep breath before walking through the door.
I wondered if other people could see us. Two people who looked identical would stand out and draw attention. Or so you’d think. But as we walked down the street nobody seemed to give us a second look.
Maybe my Other Self was invisible; which would make sense if she was merely a figment of my imagination, perhaps created by my subconscious mind in a last ditch attempt to shake me out of my long-term depression.
Whatever the case, my Other Self, though like me, stood tall and had real bearing and confidence. Whereas I just wanted to hide when I was out in public, and my self-worth was almost non-existant.
So I followed my Other Self downtown. I figured I had nothing to lose. Perhaps I was mad. But I was also intrigued by this strange experience.
We went into a Starbucks and ordered coffee. Again, nobody gave us so much as a glance. So whatever was going on, at least we weren’t drawing attention to ourselves – which suited me fine.
We sat down on a couple of comfortable armchairs, and sipped our coffees.
My Other Self looked deeply at me, and said:
“You are a unique person, incredibly caring and giving. You have much to give to the world. But people have taken advantage of your loving nature, mostly because you try too hard to please due to your lack of confidence in yourself. You look to others for reassurance. Rather than give it to you, they use you and take of your innate kindness.
In the end, this wore you down, and you sank into prolonged depression. Your world, your very reality, then became a manifestation of your state of mind. Thus your house became cluttered and disorganised, and you fell into terrible poverty.
In many ways, you were punishing yourself because you felt unworthy and undeserving of any of the good things in life.”
“I think that’s true,” I said. “But how do I change? I do feel unworthy of anything, and I let people take advantage of me, partly because I feel I should help other people, and make sure their lives are OK. I put their needs first – especially those who are broken… I try to fix them.”
My Other Self laughed. “The first lesson you need to learn is that you can’t help other people; they can only help themselves. Yes, you can do some things for them. Perhaps in terms of leading the way. After that, it is up to them. They have to find the power inside them to make their own lives the way they would like them to be.”
“But you can’t just leave people to it,” I said. “it’s harsh and uncaring. Some people need nurturing, especially if they are broken in some way.”
My Other Self shook her head and replied…
“Being kind and caring is a positive character trait. But you need to recognise that if you do too much for people they become like leaches, or ‘psychic vampires’, they take and they take, and then take some more. It is a very rare person who doesn’t do that. The best you can do is show some level of kindness, then show a person the way. If they don’t take the path, then you must walk away.”
With that, we finished our coffee, left Starbucks, and made our way through the city streets. As we were turning the corner into the street I lived in, my Other Self said:
“Like all those who live on this spinning ball we call Earth, you need to find your true self that lies within. Do that, and you will not only have self-worth, but you will see that whatever you choose to be, you can be…”
Just at that moment, I heard somebody call my name – a neighbor. I turned to my Other Self to say I’d better go and see what my neighbor wanted, but she was gone. And my Other Self was nowhere to be seen…